How often does it happen that you start afearing the goodness in the people around you? You can’t take how good they can be; how they care for you all the time. Even when you don’t deserve to be treated the way they deal with you. Even when you know you haven’t been at the best of your behaviours; haven’t complied with all your duties that a relationship requires of you; worse: you haven’t even been a good friend. And still, when you look at them, all you see is a sense of oblige in them, a sense of care for you and a prayer of your own well-being.
There are also times, when you wish that they were not to be so good to you. You know that they are doing all that is good for you but you want it to be otherwise. They like to bring a completeness in your life and provide a sense of belonging and hence security to the new paths of a revamped life you are treading into. However, you wish not to be looked after so much, not to be nurtured and watched over all the time; not to be comforted by all the pleasures that they are constantly trying to offer you. Because sometimes, you don’t want what seems to be the best option for you; sometimes, it’s more fun than the righteousness of life that matters; sometimes, you don’t need the discipline of life as much as the randomness of it.
4 comments:
I'm having three different strains of thought after reading this:
One, I'm wondering if you fear that you're not reciprocating enough for all the benevolence, because you don't want so much in the first place!
Two, you're so lucky to have such amazing friends, who are truly your family away from home..Your parents will never stop caring enough for you..same goes here..Sometimes you need to express to them that you've grown up enough or you want to explore some things yourself. I don't know if you can do that with friends..
Third, comment given on gtalk :P :)
Well, I ain't fearing to not been able to reciprocate enough but am somehow wondering, if not complaining, as to why all this benevolence is coming my way; most of which, I do not even need (read deserve).
And yeah..it's different with friends and family but my feelings are not directed to any one group actually. :)
Well, good things happen to good people :)
[url=http://hopresovees.net/][img]http://vonmertoes.net/img-add/euro2.jpg[/img][/url]
[b]filemaker pro 9, [url=http://vonmertoes.net/]setup Software[/url]
[url=http://bariossetos.net/][/url] medicine shop software discount for software
where can i buy microsoft software [url=http://vonmertoes.net/]free mac sketch plugin for photoshop[/url] discount adobe software for
[url=http://bariossetos.net/]used software canada[/url] medical office billing software
[url=http://hopresovees.net/]2007 discount software[/url] academic discount on software
shop software community [url=http://bariossetos.net/]Master Collection Mac[/b]
Post a Comment